It still clear.

Yesterday night I have a dream. That is I dream about the wooden house that I live about 10 years ago. All the memories about there slowly cross over my mind, I feel it just happened yesterday.

The structure of the house I still remember clearly.

2 rooms, 1 wash room, 1 kitchen that bigger than my current house. In front of the house my mum plant some flowers. My childhood toy was the sand in front of my house. When free I will build a castle with the sand or draw some thing on the sand. Now think back feel it fun and nowadays children where got chance to play with sand because the floor is cover by cement and their parents do not want them become dirty "cat".

Last time my grandma also stay together with us. She is very nice and "sayang" my brother and I. Sometimes my brother and I will gamble with my grandma too. Haha... Fishing(5 cent per point), BackJack(depend on how much u bet) ^^. But human can't fight with DEAD. My grandma pass away when I was 12. When I heard the news that my grandma pass away, I silly till pray to GOD let her alive again. I miss my grandma. T_T

Sometimes give yourself some time sit down and think about the past, you will found that what have happened during the past are sweet memories for us. Although we have some bad experience but it become an important experience for us to make sure do not repeat the same mistake again. Currently I'm trying my best to handle my feeling, it's already one month but I still think about her and the things have happened between us.

Happy Birthday to Yoke Yin(22), Wei Jian(22), Wei Kang(22), and myself(23).

Not motivated!!

Recently really feel myself super duper lazy d. School started for 2 weeks d I still on holiday mood, and I know there still got a lot tasks are waiting me to solve it such as FYP, Advance Engineering Analysis2 tutorial, revision for Control System1. Unfortunately I become a lazy guy d.

I sleep during lecture.

I sleep during tutorial.

Only watching movie when free.(Only think wanna do revision and FYP but no action T_T)

This morning our course was scolded by he head of SOT. Haiz.......

She very disappointed on our performances and attitude on study last semester. She also warned US no more ISSUE from our course.(She praying so hard that we can pass all subjects and transfer our credit to Degree)

Sometimes I was wondering why I need to study so hard. For myself? Parents? Future?

I'm so confusing. Even the reason I chose Mechatronics course I also very hard to tell you guys why I chose it. Actually I'm a guy who do not like to use my brain I like to move my body when working. I think I chose the wrong course d, but what to do I in final year d. "Die die also get the cert 1st".

Who and WHat can motivate me? Any idea? I need some guide d.... I LOST.

Past

Yo... Today is the 1st day of Oct, and today is the day I become a FOOL as will. Why I said I became a FOOL? Cos fool by a gal n her bf. Detail you all can ask me personally.

Anyway start from today I will not be a good guy anymore and will not simply trust anyone included my friends around me (Sorry, if I hurt you my friend. I also need to protect myself). The only thing I can trust is MONEY. That is what I feel currently.

This world is full of different kind of people, although you do not have the intention to hurt them or anything to do with them they still will think of a way to hurt you.

Now I understand why the animation Death Note so famous cause he can kill anyone just by writing their name on the note. It is easy. Wish this thing really exist. LOL (I am gone crazy)

I HATE people

-lie me

-say bad thing about me be hide me.(Just tell me face to face)

-late for the any meeting or outing

So far that's all I can think about. ^^